I am usually
good when it comes to things I have committed to. It takes toothache and
someone else cancelling to keep me from doing my bit once I have pledged. This leads me to believe that maybe I have
bitten off too much, or have I just jumped in without much thought to what is
required.
Because
walking and jogging has been mooted and my driveway requires twenty lengths to
make up a single kilometer, I have sworn allegiance to the stern woman who
drives my exercise app. Second day in
and I have pulled a neck muscle doing what I like to call ear-ups; pulling
oneself up by the ears into a sitting position as there are no core muscles to
speak of. So now I have a sore neck and no inclination to exercise, but the
desire to emerge from this lockdown looking good still exists. Some rest and a different approach might
help.
My second
issue is not as easily solved. The
situation requires that we manage our money and save what we can for the
uncertain future. The situation also
requires that I use the time I have productively. I loudly announced that I might try an online
course. There are loads of free short
courses I can take, I am not concerned about accreditation, I just want to
learn something. But what?
I still don’t
know what I want to be when I am big, and I have been many things. From a
waiter and manager to salesperson in an adult store and the person the bank
calls for assistance. I have baked cakes, sold porn and given advice on
accounts and television sets. I have made food and sold it on the side of the
road, and I have written copy for websites.
Granted I did some for longer than others, but they all came to an end. Either because nothing was required of me or
because too much was required, more than I was willing to commit to at any
rate.
Of course,
one would think that financial reward would be a large motivator in all this.
Alas, for me it is not. When I made the most money I was also at my unhappiest
and vice versa. Except for selling smut, there was no money or joy. A few interesting conversations, but no joy.
The common
thread here seems to be that I have focused on people and their satisfaction in
all my jobs. So maybe I can take
direction from this and find a course that will help me to deliver to others as
well as myself. Mindful living, purposeful action, and the like are concepts I
am becoming more and more acquainted with, and I like them. If you have
any suggestions for an online course that I might be interested in, please
leave me a comment. But only if you are
not sensitive or precious about the subject.
